Writing – the perennial pain in my mind

Why is writing so difficult? Writing according to the new age definition includes blogging as well. I am a well versed reader. I know all the “important” events happening around the world, thanks to newspapers and online news sites. I am also aware of what many opinionated and some pseudo-opinionated minds feel about a host of topics “plaguing” our environment/society thanks to A&L daily, The New Yorker, The Economist & Caravan. But, when it comes to my trust with writing, I always fall apart. Is it because I am intimated by the amount of lucidity I could bring while typing down my thoughts in a virtual world? Or is it because I am too lazy to use my right brain to figure out a few sentences that will capture my stream of thought? Or maybe I set too high standards for myself which I fear that I might not replicate. Whatever the reason might be I am just a character away from expressing myself – every time.

Writing to me has always been personal. Before the whole blogging genre came into picture, I considered myself a personal writer i.e., I wrote to myself. This was something I used to do at least every alternate day. But, as time slid through the slit of life, I found myself increasingly conscious of myself. Altogether, I stopped writing using pen and paper. Then, in the late teens, when blogging was the “In thing”, I created my 1st blog and typed in my teen frustrations coupled with a desperate attempt to save myself from the farce that was life. I always wanted to become a rebel but I was never one. I always wanted to be the outrageous guy in the class who went by the motto, “My way or the highway” courtesy a lot of Telugu and Tamil movies. Alas, as I pointed out, I was not quick with my “right brain”. My logical self sprang me back to reality and took me thru the drone of IIT prep, engineering and subsequently working in an Indian MNC. I do confess that I had intermittent bouts of self realization and came back to blogging but it never lasted for more than a week.

Its 2012 and the beginning of another exciting and eventful year of my life. This might even be the busiest year of my life since 2001-2002. I have made a come back to the blogging community but it sure wasn’t with a bang. I still have so much to learn about writing, about expressing my life in words and simply the art of english. But, I do need a vent or rather an opportunity to share snippets of my life with myself (and maybe some bored folks who stumbled upon my blog by mistake). So here I am furiously typing away on my keyboard, the so called “musings of a pragmatic preacher”. Here’s to a new lease of life (read it as Google hits) for my blog.

Adios!

Resurrection


I couldn’t think of a better word than this. It is cliched and also a bit unimaginative but it does suit the mood. It has been a little over 30 months that I started blogging. Its like this love-hate relationship which is sort of like a necessary evil. This time also I am not sure how long I will be able to sustain this random musings. Only time will tell. A lot has happened since my last post. To summarize:

1) Now I am back in India

2) Couldn’t qualify to Dartmouth University

3) Gave my GMAT- twice.

4) Applied to Duke, UNC, ISB and NUS. Got rejected from all these schools. Even though I got thru 2 US B schools, funding became an issue.

5) Reapplied to ISB the next year and applied to SP Jain PGPM program. Got accepted to both programs.

6) Getting married to my long time girlfriend. (In another 2 days :-) )

7) Booked my honeymoon tickets to Thailand.

8) Learnt Spanish albeit I need to work harder.

That’s the list in brief. The initial euphoria regarding ISB has kinda settled in and now I am reading the FB postings of my class group (ISB Class of 2013). They are an incredible bunch and boy, everyone is indeed a superman/superwoman with his/her own superpowers.

Until the next post

Adios

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Ego go go…

So here I am, sitting in my office on a lovely Sunday evening and typing these words. Lately, I have been focussing a lot of my attention on work. I mean I have always been this sort but lately it is a bit too much. I guess this is what people do when they approach their mid twenties. Maybe not.Anyways as I was sitting here and doing my mundane task, something flashed in my mind. Have you ever been so egoistic that even though when you don’t commit any fault, you still blame yourself for the situation? Well, I have always been like that. Maybe I am egoistic to a certain extent but who isn’t. There is a fine line between introspection and egoism and I never understood where it is drawn.

There are many people who don’t like me, personally and professionally. Why? Well, I might have done some things to really piss them off. Or maybe they have some kind of inferiority complex, I don’t know. But what I do know is that life is too short to be thinking about these issues. I pissed off some person, Big deal. Why can’t people put aside their differences and let go. Maybe it is their ego that says “Come on you wuss! Don’t leave him with that. He is asking for more”. Well, believe me I have some really strange people in my life (who are not in their twenties but well in the late forties) do such weird things. They are like children from whom their favorite toy has been snatched away. Suckers!!

Seems like I’ll have to follow this damn tide for a few more months. I have been considering some really serious career-change options lately. I mean, I know where I am going to head in the next 10 years of my life if I continue this present job. And I really don’t like the direction. Hence the career change. I am thinking of some options and will update you once I figure out exactly what to do with them.

And one of the last things I need to mention is that I would like to congratulate Miss. G on her arrival on the blogosphere. Keep going babes!!

Adios!